So, we have come to the end of the 1001 days for my 101 list. Here are the unfinished tasks:
8. Make an igloo/snow fort (Part finished)
We started. It has been so cold outside recently that I have not gone out to finish. I will finish though. I hope. Maybe.
9. Take a family vacation
Nope. Didn't get to do that, sadly.
10. Visit Nintendo-land
Again, nope. Not sure we will ever be able to do that, either.
15. Create a proper composting area on the farm instead of just a pile
Again, this didn't happen. The guys on the farm are not interested in doing this. What they've been doing for composting for decades is going to be good enough.
18. Clean out area behind/above garage to be usable again
Nope. But I still want to do this. I think I will put this on the next list.
29. Finish first year album for M
Didn't do anything on it.
30. Finish first year album for Bram
This one I didn't touch, either.
I finished the first, got partway through the second one, too. I still need to print it. I think I was being unreasonable by putting 3 full scrapbooks that will easily be 100 pages each or more as one list item! My first album is 99 pages. My second looks like it will easily hit 120. And my third? That one might hit 200!
34. Finish writing last novel in trilogy
Never touched it. I don't even remember what I was writing anymore.
49. Find a way to pay for a garage/expansion (change to kitchen) without a loan
Yeah.... I don't know what to say about this one. I need a new kitchen. Cabinet door fell off again, the countertop is peeling, the sink has nothing left for the faucet to hold onto anymore. I am having issues making decisions. I just... can't. I'm paralyzed on that. I don't know. I have savings, but I can't decide anything and am too afraid to make the purchase. Also, I feel like I will be without a kitchen and I just cannot handle that thought. Is it weird that I'd rather be in the broken but functional kitchen? I know it is stupid, but I can't do it.
55. Get back to pre-pregnancy weight
Ha... hahaha. Yeah. Still 5lbs over. Been there for a long time. I can't seem to lose that. Been trying a number of things the last couple of weeks. Scale hasn't moved.
56. Bring down waist to under 30 inches
This one is weird. First thing in the am it's 31. Later in the evening it's 35. I know that my muscle separation is partly to blame, but that's just ridiculous.
61. Put up shelves for laundry room/table area (Part finished)
I did the main shelf, but not the table next to it. It functions as I desired it to. I also wanted to put a shelf behind the washer/dryer to hide things, but that wasn't on the list, I kind of added it to the whole 'idea' and that was one thing I was having trouble figuring out, so I never did any of that, haha. Yeah. I'm going to say 'part done' and call it a day.
69. Fence around part of yard
Nope. Didn't do any!
75. Visit Little House on the Prairie museum
The whole family road trip thing was a no go. Still is a no go. Not sure if it will ever be a go.
76. Visit Mt Rushmore
See point 75.
80. Babysitter course (with first aid) for oldest two kids (& myself, in the first aid department)
I was looking this up. I did have my daughter signed up in 2020, and then when they cancelled it all I never signed up again. I almost did, but the price was more than doubled, and I severely questioned the necessity of it as she knows the basics. First aid by itself might work, but now I don't know what we should use...
96. Build a greenhouse OR a summer kitchen
Got the sink cabinet started, but didn't finish. I'm really seeing a pattern here with starting and not finishing anything.
98. Ride a hot air balloon
I have zero desire to do this. This has followed my list from the beginning, and I don't even know why anymore.
99. Do a ‘trash the dress’ photo session with other girls
Yeah... I don't fit my dress, and I kind of want to fit my dress. Also, not sure I know anyone who would want to do this with me. Maybe my cousin?
81 done, 3 partly done, 17 not completed in 1001 days.
I did not accomplish much in the last couple of months of this list at all. Honestly, I know why. I have not been unable to focus on these. I mentioned before that we had a health scare with my oldest daughter. It has been a journey! I'm happy to say she is doing SO much better, and we are so very encouraged! However now I'm seeing health issues on my end, and my husband as well. I am battling the feeling of failure in my own life in so many areas (areas that involve day to day, not large tasks), and I'm not sure how to handle this. I do have another 101 in 1001 list I created on my phone a while back, but I'm not sure when I'll officially put it up or 'start' it, and I'd kind of like to keep some of these items on the new list, but as old items? Not sure how people do that. I think I might need to keep things a little more reasonable as well. This last list had so many things on it that were very reliant on outside forces to be favorable, and I'm not sure some of these things will ever be in the cards while we have such a large family at home. And expecting to make 5 scrapbooks while still doing my yearly week in review scrapbooks... that was insane. I say that sincerely. 500+ expected pages, plus my regular 2 pages a week... when I can barely find the time to do that anymore? That is expecting to complete at least one page per day for over half the time! Thing is, the lists I've made for myself in the past have had a number of items on them that aren't one and done... they continue. And I'm expecting myself to continue in doing so very many things. I need to seriously look at my life again, and determine what is and is not important.
Right now, my health and the health of my family is important.
I enjoy blogging, when I can get to it, but I'll say that my life is feeling crazy. I don't get much down time. I am not keeping up with homeschool (and need to send in my reports this month which I haven't started yet and I am dreading). I feel old. I feel tired. I am growing weary, even knowing that I am not to grow weary in doing what is good. I struggle. I don't like myself, but I need to keep going for the sake of my kids. I need to be stable for my family. And I need to let some of the little things that are getting to me go, because they aren't important right now. I cannot juggle all of them. A little at a time. A little at a time, Sabrina.
