TMI?

So, tomorrow is Valentine's. What am I doing for my hubby? I still don't know! I want to make him a card at least... sigh. Maybe we should have our Valentine's late so we can get everything on sale! Lol.

The remainder of this note is... well... maybe "too much info" for some.

So I had a rather scary experience on Sunday. As you may or may not know, I had a miscarriage about 5 months ago... well... I was seeing blood again. It wasn't normal, more brown than anything else, but it didn't belong. I had already been seeing a bit of color for a week. It didn't scare me. What I saw on Sunday did. It was more than just the brownish tinge I had been seeing... brown-black stringy thing. I was scared. I just finished practice at church (so standing a lot) that afternoon, and this thing scared me. Needless to say, I wanted to make an appointment Monday morning to see my doctor.

I first tried to call in at 9 when they open. Busy signal. I tried 2 more times with no luck. "Pray" God was telling me. So, I put the phone down, grabbed a book with prayers that you can pray when fearing miscarriage, and prayed out loud. I knew the baby was still alive, but sometimes intuition just doesn't cut it. After I prayed, I tried to phone in again. I got through immediately, and they told me to come in right away.

My doctor listened to my explanation, then proceeded to see if he could hear the heartbeat. Last time I was pregnant, he said it was normal not to hear anything till 10-12 weeks. I'm 9 weeks. I also had an empty bladder... which makes things more difficult. I prayed we would hear the baby... and within seconds the faint quick thumping sounds could be heard. He found a better place to hear the little one, and the heartbeat was plain as day, louder than any of "my" sounds, just thumping along at 165 bpm. You could hear both Chuck and I sigh... and all 3 of us smiled. Baby was just fine, even with the junk I was seeing.

My fears are still around, I have to admit. The brown stuff hasn't stopped, but I know when it comes. Whenever I have a bowel movement for some reason. It slows and stops shortly after, but now I'm afraid of bowel movements... which isn't good, because if I don't have them, I'll throw up and be unable to eat again like last week thursday/friday. I'm praying my cervix will heal (we think the increased pressure is what is causing this bleeding) and strengthen. I am also doing everything I can to keep my stool soft (apparently Hemp Seed Oil is really good for that). I hope this "issue" fixes itself shortly...