Trials and Tribulations

I have many things I am learning through my devotional time. Not all of them are easy, and some are mostly just kind of like God talking to me, having conversations like we haven't had in years. Lately, I've been wondering why bad things happen.

There has been so much going on in my life, and that of my friends and family. So many people are going through such troubling times, and I find myself caught up in the "why". I cannot understand why certain things are allowed to happen. And I feel as though I have to help.

Granted, life has been great for me. Sure, there has been a bit of drama here and there, but on the whole I'm doing great, I'm excited about the future of our family, and so much celebration has been going on around us. Babies being born, weddings being planned, so many happy times occuring in the lives of my friends and family. But then there are so many other things.

I won't go into detail here, mainly because most of these people may not want others to read about these things on my blog, but something that seems to be happening in so many lives is seperation. Whether spiritual, marital, or deaths, it's happening all around me. I want to know why... I keep asking God why.

He says that while He is not making these things happen, He allows them to help people grow. It's to help bring us to a new understanding of who He is. He will not allow anyone what they cannot bear, but they have to go to Him to bear it. The trial will no longer seem to be the same once He is given everything related to it.

How hard is that? Very. But I have to say that I've learned through my trials and tribulations that bringing it to Him may be difficult, but in the end it is SO worth it. I hate giving over control, and giving these things to God is doing just that, but when I really think about it, who has better control? Me or God? I think the answer is obvious.

In the end, I need to learn to not let my emotions get in the way of giving over everything to Him. And I need to continue to pray for those in my life that are going through their own trial. Perhaps the reason I don't feel like things are so bad is because I'm not focusing on my problems anymore... I'm free of them. Giving things to God each morning, giving over people and situations, it really is a freeing thing.

Satan is on a mission, and that mission is to destroy homes, people, and Christians. By praying and staying close to my Lord, I can stand firm on the knowledge that Satan will not destroy me.

Anyway, that's my little blurb. I have other things I'd love to write about that happened earlier this week... but that will wait till later. For now, I'm just content to feel the little person squirming around in my belly like they don't have a care in the world.