Why popping? I seem to be growing at an astounding 4-5cm around my waist per week. I feel like an overfilled balloon some days! And my daughter isn't helping... she loves to sit on my stomach whenever she gets the chance!
Oh, and I now have an 'outey' belly button.
That did not happen with my daughter.
It's quite strange.
I don't mind being pregnant, really. It's fine most of the time, but I'm definitely noticing it more and more this week than I did in the months prior. I'm hungry ALL the time. I feel like I'm bruising from the inside out. Those little feet are just going and sometimes I really hurt near my ribcage (although I never feel those kicks... I think it's just the pressure). This feels like it's gonna be a big baby! It's so hard to play on the floor with my daughter now. Sigh. I love playing on the floor with my daughter. Getting up doesn't love me, though! And my waist size (at my belly button) is just over one meter. One METER! I don't remember measuring myself much with my daughter (I never really felt huge at all), but this time is different.
I feel like a whale! Ha ha!
Don't get me wrong, I don't really have anything to complain about! I just forgot what this stage felt like. I'm only 10 weeks from my due date (whoa... ding ding... that's coming up fast!), and it still hasn't quite clicked. At this point with my daughter, I was almost panicking. Yes... panicking. I didn't feel ready.
As for 'ready'... are we ever? I think I've just got so much else on my mind that I haven't had a chance to really think about it at all. That, and lack of sleep isn't helping much. Baby seems to think that sleep time is acrobatics time. :)
One thing I know is this... I need a break. I've been running myself ragged trying to get all the bookwork for the farm done (for some reason, cleaning and organizing doesn't seem to be wearing on me at all... I could keep doing that all day... it's this paperwork and computer work that is driving me nuts). It's wearing me thin. I feel stressed by it. And my daughter needs my attention whenever she is not sleeping, so I only have so many hours I can really focus on it. And it's apparently not enough. I've been working on it daily since January started, and I still feel so far behind. Don't get me wrong, I'm not really that far behind, it just feels that way. And I have an impossible time saying to myself "It's ok, Sab, you're doing great, you can take a nap now", or "go ahead and pop some popcorn and sit on the couch with that root beer and enjoy a movie", or "the bookwork can wait a little, you've done enough today. Go soak in the tub". Instead, it's "I can't have fun until I've got the work done" in my head day in and day out. Even if I've worked on it for 3 hours straight (which is a lot for me... considering most of the time that's all I'd need to do to keep up to date all WEEK) for days in a row. I've done 2 hours today... and 2 yesterday, same with Monday and Tuesday... sigh. I just want it to be done already.
Sorry for the rambling rant...
Anyway... I have to know something...
What is up with my stomach wanting me to cram more into it when it's so tight it feels like a stretched balloon? Anyone else hear me on this? It's the strangest thing! (yeah, yeah... randomness is my specialty today).
Anyway, hope you are all doing well! And as for me... I'm doing fine. I just really needed to get my few frustrations out there. Sorry... really... I am ok...
10 weeks... how insane is that!
4 comments:
I went through those INTENSE CRAZY woman hungar phases too. I just followed them. I figured my body knew what it needed and I just followed it's cue.
I know how draining that office work is too. I am ALWAYS behind on balancing the ledger, and it drives me nuts. It gives me a headache to work on it!
I bet you are having a boY! {{wink}}
Oh, Sab, I know exactly how you feel! (About the work thing, not the popping thing, seeing as how I have no kids, haha.)
Take that nap already! You deserve it!
I'm finding it really hard to bathe C. We have a deep corner tub, and I have to get in, or at least sit on the side with my feet in, to be able to reach her properly!
I hear you on the hunger. It's not as bad as the first trimester was, but i still feel like I'm always eating. The Valentine's Day chocolates didn't help either.
When are you due? I'm due May 3rd (although it may have to be earlier). Only 2 months left, and we still haven't done the nursery yet - poor second child is neglected already!
Go relax, girl!! :D You'll be extra super busy when Baby #2 comes, so relax while you can. (Like I know what I'm talking about...haha)
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