Week 27 - Speak Positively

You can find the link to this post on the whole healing challenge, here.

Week 26 recap - Live for today.
Um... last week I had no time to think about the past, even if I had wanted to.  Our house was ill.  Yeah.  My kids were sick, throwing up and whatnot, and so the only thing you can do in that instance is live for that day.  Life is too busy to focus on the past hurts and afflictions... I don't know why I'd even bother any more.  Ok... Sab... you said it yourself.  Let us not focus on negative pasts.

Anyway, this week is going to be a doozy.

Positive speech.

I've recently been reading a book called 'Jump off the hormone swing' by Lorraine Pintus.  The chapter I just finished was on words.  More specifically, how our words can kill.  ouch.  I have a lot to do in this area.  I didn't have as much of a problem with this area years ago... I'm not sure why I let my words sting those people I love the most, but I do.  And I need to stop.  Shut my mouth up tight.  Just... shut it.  Once I read that chapter on Saturday, I've been working my hardest to really take note of all the thoughts that cross my mind before they slide off my tongue.  It isn't easy.  I had a breakdown on Friday, and the words I said, while they weren't meant to hurt my husband, they did.  I wasn't sensitive to his situation, and just 'blah blah blahed' my thoughts without thinking them through.  Then when he said things to me that angered me... well...

Let's just say that I am proud that the words that did cross my mind did NOT exit my mouth.  Because I don't even know where those words came from.

Not to mention, my in-laws probably think their son married some kind of crazy woman, what with me going outside to just scream.  Hey, I've got to let the anger out some how, and I definitely see that way as better than the other options.

So... yeah... finding out that my words need to be the words of Christ, that my hurtful words bring death... I've got to work on this.  Majorly.  I wrote down Ephesians 4:29 on my chalkboard as a reminder...
Ephesians 4:29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

Ok... so... this is necessary.  I think I may need to look up other verses, write them all over the house, and keep in mind that my words ARE very important.  Not just in what I say to others, but what I say about myself, to myself.

This is going to be tricky... but I WILL do this!  I WILL change this.  I WILL take my tongue captive, take my thoughts captive, and only permit those that are wholesome and positive!

I will need prayer on this one!