52 Week Healing - week 31 - Trust

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This week is about trusting the Lord.  There are so many verses in the Bible that call us to trust Him, obviously it is an important thing to know!

I've been learning about trust through my kids lately.  I used to be a much more trusting individual than I am now.  I trusted everyone.  If you said you did something, I believed you (although, I think they call that 'gullible' now, haha).  I had no reason not to.  If my mom said that God would make sure we had food on our table, than we would have food on our table.  We always did, too.  Food, clothes, the things we needed.  They may not have been the most 'in style' or the most 'sought after' things, but they were enough, and we felt like we had everything we needed.

And I still feel that way.

God had provided for us in so many ways.  I never need worry about things.  If I wish for something, or feel I'd like to have something, or need something, He provides.  For example, this year I really wanted to do cloth diapering, but I didn't know where to get diapers from, or what I should spend, or anything.  God provided.  One of my friends had newborn cloth diapers they borrowed us so we could get an idea of whether we wanted to actually do this or not, and if we liked that type of diaper or would want a different type.  It helped immensely!  Took the pressure off.  Then, to my utter delight, another friend of mine had inserts she just gave to me!  I found two covers to purchase at a store clearout for 1/2 off, and then in the box of inserts I was given two covers as well!  I now know what I like, and I know what I'll buy if I see it.  But in total (for cloths, diapers, covers, a scraper for the poopies, buckets, etc) I've only spent $15.  God gave me what I needed and then some!

My biggest trust issue is something about myself.  I know it also means I need to trust God, but I have an issue trusting if what I think I'm supposed to do (or not do) is actually from God or from myself.  I won't move on something until I feel sure, but I know that if it is from myself, I can attempt to move on it and just trust that God will not allow it to happen, or will give me a clear indication that no, this is not from Him.  It is difficult though.  Yet, even if my not moving forward is due to my distrust in myself, God is still making things work well for us here, now, where we are.  And I am blessed.

Want to know something awesome?  When you trust God fully, and allow Him to move in your life in something that usually would terrify you, you experience his blessing and peace like you've never known.  It is the most amazing place to be, in His arms, knowing that even though you are terrified of what is happening, of what is going to happen, that He will take care of you and you only need to look to Him when afraid.

Now if only I could remember this every time I'm afraid...