The Daily Dilemma

Sleep... where art thou?

Lately, I'm so tired!  I'd love to spend all day sleeping, but I have to be Ok with a few hours a night, and hopefully a nap later in the day.  That usually means I don't do much through the day beyond the stuff I need to (like laundry, cooking, baking, diapers, and nursing).  I want to work on my old paper scrapbooks, but I get interrupted so often that I don't get anywhere on it.  I want to sew a dress, but I feel like laying out the fabric will just mean a two year old in it.  I also have no pattern... I kinda want to have some fun with it and just see what I can come up with, but I need to be without my kids, and that doesn't happen often.  And when it does, I want sleep, ha ha.

Oh, and sculpting!  I want to do some sculpting so badly!  And maybe some art... sigh.  I need something of a deadline in order to actually do anything.  Birthday parties are perfect as I have a deadline to reach, so I need to get the items done by then, and that motivates me to do so.  I am exhausted by the end of it all, though.

I've been wanting to prepare for another trip... which doesn't seem to be able to happen.  You see, we saved up to go on a vacation in November this year (two years since our last one).  I worked hard to save up... however we cannot go on a trip if my husband is needed on the farm.  My father in law is due for a surgery in fall, and will not be able to work for over a year.  We cannot operate the farm without him and Chuck.  That means no weekends off at that point... which means no holidays either.  At all.  Unless we can somehow spring for robot milkers.  Our farm cannot support another hired worker, either.  Mainly because dad will continue receiving income when he isn't working as well.  Adding another paid employee will strain the farm further.  Thankfully, I've been working at reducing debt load on the farm, but it still isn't enough.  So, likely no trip for another two years (as dad is scheduled for yet another surgery a year after this one... sigh).

My big motivator for doing some crafting was the promise of a trip come November.  I still should do these things... but I'm a bit down about it all.  Sigh. 

I really need a vacation... but it looks like it won't happen.  :(  Back to the daily grind of laundry, dishes, cleaning, diapers, food, baking bread, etc etc.  At least I am doing stuff... right?  I just wish more of it was stuff that lasted longer than a day, ha ha..