Decisions Decisions

What do you do when you need to make a decision, but that decision is likely going to hurt people no matter what you do?

Recently, my husband and I had to make a decision to either quit or continue in something that he helped form online many years ago.  Many close friends we made along the way already left for their own reasons, and stuff was brought to our attention that had us questioning if we really could continue with how things were running. The values that this venture was started under were no more, given over in favor of numbers and page likes.  That was never the intent.  The company was no longer what it had been made to be.  Sure, there were many great ideas coming, lots of stuff that would be fantastic and I was quite looking forward to, but trust had been broken.  Mistakes were made.  And unfortunately, many mistakes require more than a simple apology to get around. 

Yet, here I am.  I feel hurt.  I feel slightly afraid.  And I'm very sad.  I'm sad for all the people that have been hurt by the actions of this group, knowingly or unknowingly.  I feel scared that I may have lost some friendships myself.  And I'm not really sure who to trust right now.  I think I need to step back from everything for awhile.  I'm still a member of the groups, even those I didn't admin on, but right now I'm not sure I want to even be part of those unless they separate from Geeks Unite as many already have done. 

Silly as it sounds, I have actually been a bit emotional over it all.  However, I do have one positive thing to say.  I feel free.  Finally, I feel free of all the drama that surrounded the group over the past few months... drama that slowly escalated months after the death of the original founder.  We worked really hard to preserve what it started as, what it was meant to be, and instead, things went downhill.  I'm really not sure how much I'm willing to say on this blog, mostly because I don't want any more people hurt.  I'm just really needing to let this all out in some way.

And perhaps, in some strange way, this is better for us right now anyway.  It was taking a lot of our time, time I feel I can now devote to other things.  Like my hobbies.  Perhaps my YouTube channel.  Costumes.  Or even designing my own kids clothes.  I've always had so many interests, so many dreams, and now I'd like to move forward with them.  However, I am hurting a bit right now, and will likely need time to myself for a bit.  Time devoted to prayer, family, and friends.
Maybe I can even take a break from Facebook as my responsibilities on there have been removed.  Would be nice.

Anyway, thanks for reading my ramblings.  I need to go back to breaking up the real life drama between my kids... again.  Sigh.  Have a good week, everyone.